[Chapter I]

I need to take a pregnancy test…

I’m floating

We were on the floor, and at the tops of our lungs, on the tip tips of pink pink cloud dreams…

A dream?

A memory?

I woke up in a garden, the bees flitting in their playful and determined way. Flirtatious. Communal. These Free Ass Muhfuckas… We Free Ass Muhfuckahs!

Self love

A sustainable, abundant source of energy

Our joy

Our nectar

Our divine melodies

I feel feverish

Caught up in holy dances of the flesh, skin to skin sacrament, witnessing our rapturous delight

Us – you, me, they and ze

My lungs are full of air

To sing and scream and cheer and beckon you closer

My body aches with all this lovely lust

Touch me, smell me

A splash of fragrance

Dive in

The water feels fine

Download your memories into me

Sensual digital bite mark

And kisses all over my thighs

Ooooo

(Sigh)

We’ve got all night

Take your time

To feel

And be present

You are welcome

You are phenomal

And your pheromones are seductive

Succulent seductress

Aereola and nipples come to play

Washed away in this fever dream

Spent and giddy

We lounged in the meadows

Eschewing our responsibilities for another day

Today we play

Today we celebrate

We are here

We survived

Not everyone did

We are alive

And so it is

[Chapter II]

To the lives we lead…to the dream we chase…to the moments we gon make… and the FUCKED UP SHIT we can’t erase…ashé.

To our joy, ashé

To our dreams, realized – ashé

To being seen in the way we want to be seen – ashé

To loving who we want to love, how we want to love, ashé

Dance, cuz there ain’t nobody else in this bitch like you

I’m dizzy, drunk on your love, your lovely musk, your lovely you

I can’t think straight, and I don’t want to neither

We’re the QTs baby – that’s QUEER AND TRANS, BB

Better yet we the BLACK QTs BB

Church raised

Bosom fed

Hip gyrating

Crop top wearing

Sweaty

Shouty

Ohmigohdohmigohdohmigohd chanting

That mmmnnnghhhh

That oooooooouuuugghhhhhhh

That fuuuuuuuuuuuck yeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssss

That thigh clenchin’

Cheek wrenchin’

Grab my shit and bust me out

Real good, Good Good

All my bitches baddies

Riding with my bestie

Ain’t no stoppin’ us

Don’t you come for us

Best not try ya luck

We all for one

Raise your hands

Get lo

Real real lo

[Chapter III]

A glimpse of the taboo, dashing before us

Emerging from back rooms and hidden doors

May all your dreams come true, tonight

May all our dreams come true

Each chapter reveals a new facet

Revealing visionary dazzle, impressive and spectacular

Layers upon layers of oozing gooey chocolate

Fudgy and creamy and so so sweet

I may have a sweet tooth or two

Put it on my tongue

Dance across the room

There ain’t nobody else in this bitch like you

Rapture and rush

Crescendo and gushing waterfalls,

Stomach crunching, toe curling, oh my fuck yes here it comes

Flowing down your mouth

Dance with me

An invitation to sway together for a moment,

The present moment

All its pains and attractions and loudness beckoning – be here, be here now

In your body

With me

You had to be there…

[Chapter IV]

And we march on

Rods and rafts

Surfboards

Boogey woogey baby!

Scoop diddly woop, boom boom oh yeah

Ain’t nothin’ ever felt like this

Like your kisses

Like the way I blush when our eyes meet

Like the smell of fresh twisted locs brought me straight back to you

Nutty oils and cocoa creams that sat sweet in your cracks and crevices

Incredible

How the universe brought me to you

How we defied every odd, every oppressor that dared to stand before us, every wound we nursed, every scar we bore, ever whisper shared, every bellow from our guts, every creak, every groan, every sigh…

Everytime I think of you…

And I’m no longer there…

[Chapter V]

Starting and stopping, stooping,

Pass me some water?

We waxed ourselves silly

We laughed and howled and barked and sang sang sang til our lil hearts were full on love

Plenty of love here

Enough for us, all us

Ain’t nobody gettin’ left

We remembered all yall

Cuz all yall us

We all here, we all here

Got here by way of the ancestors and icons and legends and low hands and high brows raised, questionin’, askin’, darin’…

And the hands doin the graspin’ and searchin’ and pattin’ down

We had us some times mighty fine

A riotous righteous right ole good time

Sho nuff we did

And ain’t a one who can stop we

We be free

We the ones that be carryin’ on

We the ones ain’t got the good sense

We the ones them others ones whisper bout

Ain’t a one who can stop we

Sacred body, flushed, spent, aching, empty, in between, far beyond…

Mind, and spirit immaterial, so divine, and carnal

Walking contradiction guess I’m… blessed

No stress baby, no stress

I wanna put on my housedress and go to bed

Rub my feet

Drink my tea

Put on a soft melody to ease me to sleep

With you, it all feels like play and rest

Nevermind we just spent 2.5 hours belting at the tippy tops of our lungs

Vitality, energy, another day,

Living, breathing, waking, being

Free as the bees

Free as we bee

Put a lil honey in my cup

Lemme sip that nectar once more

Hydration for my parched tongue

Wet my lips, lubricate my insides

There’s enough to go once more

Leave it all open, written on your collar, in your funktrail, on your heartstrings

We

Are

We

Were

We

Forevermore